I always thought relationships had to go to a certain length of time before we could have problems... I haven't even reached 2 weeks with my boyfriend and I'm already having problems with him. I'm not sure what to do... I've already fallen victim to myself. I cut again last night. It felt incredible to have control over something again, but I can say that my friends weren't so thrilled with my choice. It was hard for them to listen to me explain my situation. They're more pissed off at my boyfriend, simply because he wasn't there for me when I have been there for him. I've never seen my friends so mad.... especially at me. Nichol was embracing, when she let me cry and took me to a counseling center to make an appointment for an in-take. They want me to be better, and I love them so much for it.
My boyfriend is mad at me. He doesn't take well to my cutting. He has no room to talk, because he has scars of his own. I know he's upset. I told him the truth and I promised him I'll stop. I just wish things would get better. It feels too soon to be broken. I don't want to cry because of him. I don't want to lose him. I know I made a mistake. I just wish he'd understand where I'm coming from.
Hoping I won't be lonely,
Sierra
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