Strength At Its Best

My one friend that I've had my ups and downs with was in the hospital today. She thought it was appendicitis. I was scared to death, considering we were on our own getting her to the hopsital and she didn't have her parents by her side. I know that there were RNs that looked down on my friends and I because of the fact that we're young and we wanted to see our friend. Friends don't apply when it comes to visitors that are important to a person, even in a college town.

Thinking while I was in the waiting room, I had to think about the fact that I was missing a night class for her. I was thinking about my financial stresses and work. I had a lot running through my mind. It was scary to have such concern for my friend then reflect on my own life. I looked up to see a wrestlemania commercial going on the TV. John Cena had a song playing with his clip, and it has became my new anthem. I love it, because I really do feel invincible, considering the things I go through. I've lost 2 friends to causes that weren't suicide. I've struggled giving up what I desire so horribly. I've struggled focusing on school. I've struggled with my family and staying connected. I want to listen to the positivity that surrounds me. I can't be positive with myself because I feel that I'm only human. I don't think that I'm anything. I know people want me to listen to what they have to say, but sometimes, it's hard to do that when you can't tell yourself that you are strong. You know the only truth that you are weak. You try to smile for friends, but cry in silence. You try to live, but inside, you're dying. You try to grow up, but you want to regress. You try to see the positives, but instead, you're living in the negatives. You try to dream, but instead, you fear what happens when you close your eyes.

"Voices in the air, I hear 'em loud and clear, telling me to listen, whispers in my ear, nothing can compare, I just want to listen, telling me I'm invincible, I am" -MGK, Invincible

Remembering I'm not Superman, but I'm invincible,
Sierra