I just finished watching Teen Mom 2. The big topic on twitter to Leah Messer, who filed for divorce after being married for 6 months, is that she is a slut, and doesn't deserve her children. Someone even told her she is worthless and should kill herself. People make mistakes... including myself. I can see both sides to it, because I've been on both sides. I've been a cheater, and I've been cheated on. It hurts on either side. It hurts to know that you weren't good enough for someone, and it hurts to know you betrayed someone that you wanted in your life so badly. It's a hard topic. People will always be rude when it comes to cheating. Kailyn Lowry also made the choice to cheat on Jordan with Jo. The funny thing is... cheating happens all around the United States every day, and no one says anything to the people who are cheating because they don't know. Kailyn and Leah had their lives shown to the world. It's hard. I can't emphasize how hard it is to accept that you made a mistake. It's hard to admit to it. It's hard to let that person that you love so much walk out of your life.
I was engaged... and I loved my fiance with all my heart. I really did. Sometimes, I still think I do. I cheated on him with an ex... and when I told him, I cried. Not because I feared what he was going to do, but because I was sorry. Sorry doesn't change the past, but sorry shows that you gave a damn in the first place. Sorry shows that you obviously care. Mistakes are made all the time. Sometimes, those mistakes are things that affect another person in your life. He and I stayed together, until we hit a patch we couldn't fix. We simply couldn't keep it together. We are still friends, because we can handle that. The worst part of being friends with him is that there are times when I wonder why he and I aren't together and I know it's because I made a mistake. I know that in my heart. I will always miss him being in my life.
When I talk to someone of interest now, it's funny that I hold them to a high standard. I fear being cheated on, but I also fear that I will be a cheater again. Standards are not ways of making yourself look like a bitch, but ways of protecting yourself from making more mistakes. Leah and Corey were always on the rocks. They had a tough relationship because she got pregnant within less of a month of them dating. That wasn't the way to start out a relationship. It ended badly because it started badly. Maybe Leah shouldn't have moved on so quickly, but Leah has her standards, and her new fiance meets them. She's happy now. I pray that her relationship works out. I've been in her shoes. I never had to deal with millions of people watching me admit to my cheating problem, but I've had to admit it to his family. That was hard enough.
Treat others the way you want to be treated. In a relationship, it is a two-way street. You can wonder why are you cheated on, but when you get older and this happens... there are more reasons rather than boredom. There were always better solutions to the relationship, but that was the path taken. Love needs to be given in order to be received. I didn't feel love all the time from my fiance. I was wrong to cheat, but it happened. I cannot regret it because I wanted it at the time.
Treat your significant other right, especially with valentine's day around the corner.
Wishing it was Valentine's day for me, rather than Single Awareness Day,
Sierra
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